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Organ Grinder
How many times must I be subject to your fleeting whims?
Running around then stop and turn, reverse then change the plan.
How is a man supposed to know where he stands in shifting sands?
Now I understand when times get tough they say the tough get going.
And I’ve been around enough to know for me what’s right and wrong.
How can a thing that is so near, to you, seem so far off?
Oh, it’s come to me
I’ll never feel the comfort, never feel secure
And I say oh, it’s dawned on me
At some point I will need to, I’ll need to get a clue
And move on.
How many times will I be the monkey to your organ grinder?
You’re playing your tune while I perform on strings that are growing shorter.
Pretty soon I won’t know where you begin and where I end.
When you said jump I’ve always asked “how high?”
Been ready to fly
At expense of my daughter and sons
And as I was falling down, I reached for you
You kicked me to the ground
Yeah, you did!
Today
I know where you’re coming from
And I know it was all in fun.
What you put me through was good for you
I’ll bet you never could relate.
Cause had you maybe feelings would change
But that ain’t how it was.
Now there you are those days long gone
Still those judgment eyes are burning strong.
And I don’t get how feelings never fade away
I guess you really won’t relate.
Though I’m ashamed of how I felt today
I never thought I was holding on.
I hate you today.
Come to think of it, I never liked you much anyway.
I hate you today.
And I really think the way I feel is so wrong.
And now I see your face and it reminds me
The roller coaster ride was a blast when we were flying.
But what went up crashed down an amazing survival
I never once, ever tended to my pain.
And now I stand here in shame
I guess I’m left here holding on.
I hate you today.
And what I feel just won’t go away.
I hate you today.
Tell me how to lose the pain.
I never really dreamed that I was holding on to this so long
Now it feels so wrong.
But something that you said to me just dredged up all those memories
And I’ll regret these things I say.
And I don’t need goodbyes...
Ready
Can you feel the weight and pain of all your opportunity?
Can you hold your head up for today?
Cause I can feel the pull of what you do and what you want to see.
And I can tell you things somehow will change.
Obligation keeps you up at night.
Though you know there’ll come a day.
Whoa, I’ll be ready for you
Whoa, and waiting for you
Whoa, I’m ready for you
Can you get here soon?
I thought I saw the signs you gave to tell me I should carry on.
I thought that you were showing me the way.
Cause every time the path got dark you’d shine the light to keep me going on.
I had to take a pole vault leap of faith.
Determination keeps me up at night.
Irrespective of myself.
Time waits for no one but you, my friend.
And I know that I will see it through the end.
All I Want is You
All I want is you, with me.
I stare out the window for what feels like days.
New waves of emotion washing old ones away.
You’re living the dream I have and it gets to me.
But all I want is you.
All I want is you.
I’ve trampled these cold floors over and again.
And I wonder where you are, where I could have been.
I know it’s irrational; still it’s killing me.
But all I want is you.
All I want is you.
Whatever, Whenever,
Wherever, Forever,
All I want is you.
Writing on the Wall
So it seems life doesn’t wait
But you hesitate
For me.
A lesson learned.
The heart of it all
Is there when you fall
And burn.
If I’m keeping it real
It’s a long road home.
What happens now, that I’ve been…
Waiting and wasting time on myself
When I should see the writing on the wall.
And now I know these things meant to feed
All our vanities
Are overblown.
Can I turn the page and go back in time
Or maybe rewind
Those days.
Just keeping it real
It’s a lesson I already know
But it somehow got lost. Cause I’ve been…
And all these walls I built for me
I tear them down and walk away, walk away.
I’m burning down all the way.
Bound
You scale the walls.
On top but, feel the scars.
And she waits for you.
Cause you’ll never break,
And she reminds you.
What of my world
What of my everything you knew
All that you hear calling
All of these arms that bind you,
They’re real.
Believed the lies
Reached up and touched the skies
But who you are
Has never been
Very far, no
So you can take all of your hopes and dreams
They’re magazines
And the coffee table’s made of broken bones
From the machine.
And all the while you’re just nursing on their sour lies
Hearing whispers “How sweet.”
How far you fall
More so when you’re standing tall.
Do you escape
Your lot in life,
Or is she your fate calling?
Bombardier
It’s been all night and all day
Since I asked of you my question,
Did you get it in today?
I know that things like this can take some time.
When you see the sunrise I’ll be there.
A fortnight after night.
If I knew where I could get it
It’d be out of sight.
I know by now that I ain’t talking sense, no
And my head’s reeling can you get me some?
And I see the sunrise
Up around the bend
Can you get me some
Of what I need
What I like?
Now I ain’t near the source
So this middle man arrangement
Will have to do for now, of course.
It’s not like I can just appear in London anytime.
Oh that someday keeps me right.
Fingersong
It hurts a lot
It hurts a lot
It hurts a lot
My swollen finger.
It throbs a lot
And the tip is hot
It throbs, it’s hot
My swollen finger.
Maybe I could put you on some ice
Maybe wrap you up all tight and nice.
Oh God, please help me if I should bite my nails again.
As I Am
I grew up on the west side of town
My life’s been far from perfect
You know I’ve had my ups and downs
And although I know the path had been so straight
Somehow I couldn’t get there
You know I made some big mistakes
Now I’m a broken man
I’m humbled at your feet
And I know you can rescue me
If I believe
Could you please take me as I am
It’s not a lot I know
But please don’t let me go
And if you take me as I am
I’ve got a lot to give
A better life I’ll live
Can you feel it?
Now it seems so long ago from then
From those times I lost direction
Now they’re haunting me again.
And I know, I know I need to show constraint
Cause my world is so much fuller
You know I play for bigger stakes
Now I’m a broken man
All crumpled at your feet
Oh please won’t you rescue me
Cause I believe.
Desolate Sunrise
I’ve never seen the promise in the early rising sun
But maybe that’s the consequence of the road I’ve been on.
It’s so easy now, to see.
There seems to be a darkness hanging as the morning breaks
Or maybe that’s the stench of all this year has laid waste.
It’s all behind you now, or so we’ll see.
Can you see the sunrise?
It’s all in your mind
Where nothing seems to be.
And even though the end is inching closer day by day
I’m finding it burdensome to throw it all away.
It seemed so easy then, in theory.
Though all of my circumstances tortured me to now
There are certain bits of history I refuse to lean upon.
It’d be convenient now, but that ain’t me.
Oh why does it feel like you’ve forgotten me?
Oh why do you take with such ferocity?
When dawn breaks on this soul
Tell me who’ll be there to see?
Let’s Get it Right
Let’s get it right
Let’s not leave room for mistakes.
Let’s keep it tight
We’ve already had our one take.
At times it seemed we’d struggle forever.
But you and I rolled the dice and somehow it all worked out better.
So let’s get it right
Let’s keep our perspective on things.
Try as we might
We both know the pains the past can bring.
Cause we don’t live in a perfect world without struggles.
We carry on and hope somehow some beauty comes of this rubble.
So let’s get it right
This time more lives are at stake.
And if we just fight
We’ll carve out our own little space.
The worlds we’ve known were filled with so much pain and anger.
But carry on and pray somehow some beauty lives on forever.
I Believe
You whisper
And it’s so loud I can’t hear a sound.
You wait for me
Even though it seems I’m never coming ‘round.
I would walk to the ends of the earth for you.
I would climb to the top of a mountain if I could just see you.
Cause I believe that the sorrow of this all will pass.
Cause I believe that He holds us in His loving grasp.
Yeah I believe,
That the sunrise of our morning’s passed us by
Yet I believe.
I wake up
And wonder why this cloud is hanging ‘round.
I wait for you
Even though I know that you can never come around.
I would walk through the fires of hell for you.
I would leap off the edge of a mountain if I could just see you.
Cause I believe that the sorrow in this all will pass.
Cause I believe that He holds us in His loving grasp.
Yeah I believe
That the stillness of this morning’s passing by
But I believe.
What happens after this burden is gone?
The weight of the world’s on Your shoulders alone.
Cause I believe that the sorrow of this all will pass.
Cause I believe that He holds us in His loving grasp.
Yeah I believe,
That the sunrise of our morning’s passed us by
Yet I believe that the sorrow in this all will pass
Cause I believe that He holds us in His loving grasp
Yeah I believe
Through the stillness of this morning,
That your end’s a new beginning,
And we’ll meet again in heaven,
That’s what I believe.
That’s how I keep going on without you.